Friday, February 27, 2009

The Color of Fire

Here's another rambling bit of prose. I called it: The Color of Fire, but I honestly don't much like the title. Sadly I can't think of anything else, so that's what it'll remain for now.

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She gazed up at the blurry ceiling until her eyes watered and the ceiling began to shift. She blinked and tried hard to focus on the brown-ish star shaped form above her. She knew it was a ceiling fan, but without her glasses it was merely a brown blob. The lights in the fan could have been anything from stars to tiny suns, but they were simply bright glowing circles.

It was so much like what the rest of the world saw. Only her own sense of wonderment could make the blurs more than what they were.

She couldn't stare for long. The need for vision tugged at her and she cleaned her glasses idly before slipping them back on.

People seemed to assume that with clarity brought stark logic and without it was where imagination ruled. But she heartily disagreed. The blurred, washed out colors were what people saw and defined as clarity. True clarity was seeing the defined lines in their colors and designs and recognizing the adventure that the world still held. It wasn't so hard for her to imagine the movement out of the corner of her eye to be a faerie or recall the entirely romantic, but utterly true notion that somewhere, in a world she had yet to see, she was a princess and her very existence mattered more than she could even comprehend.

It was hard, though, in the mundane, dying embers to see that there was still a fire under the logs.

Imagination was distorted, the definitions had changed and something had died without a sound. She mourned it everyday as her peers considered another night of drinking as exciting and books about the everyday mundane dramas and memoirs of painful times seemed to gain popularity. There was no escape and she felt trapped in the gray, bleak place that everyone else only ever saw.

There was still something left in the embers, not that anyone ever cared to shift the logs and she had always dreamed in bright color.

Lullaby

Okay, so this started out as a song, a lullaby per the title, but since I can't write music it is currently just considered poetry. One of these days, however, I will find someone to write music for this.

Please note that blogger refuses to let me keep the spaces between verses. The asterisks are my attempt to keep my spacing.


Lullaby
By: S.J.S. Manacapilli

Be still
Take my hand and hold it tight
Don't fear
I'll be with you through the night
No matter how far you've fallen
Or how loud the thunder roars
I'm here
I'm still here
*
Don't cry
The sun will always rise
Don't fret
I'm still here when you close your eyes
No matter how dark the night gets
Or how loud the monsters roar
I'm here
I'm still here
*
It's never going to last forever
And soon the sun will rise
But I'm here
I'm always here
*
You're not the only who fears
And cries through the night
The monsters only lie to you
I'm here holding you tight
I'm here
I'm still here
I'm always here
I am here.